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This blog is about a recent experience...Two people that I love dearly hurt me to my soul...They both new how I felt about them but that wasn't enough to stop them...They was messing around with one another for 3weeks...Now 3weeks is a very long time for two people to be doing something that they knew was wrong...So how do I get pass it? How do I regain trust in either one of them? How do I know it would never happen again? How do I know it wasn't planned on either one of their parts? Now what I am getting from it is that the both of them started to feel for each other...Where would that have left me? How could anyone make themselves okay with doing such a thing knowing that would have to face the person their hurting everyday...For the life of me I can't understand why and how...And maybe this is why I can't get pass it yet...There are days were I'm angry as hell with her and don't want to say shit to her...But then there are days where I just throw it to the back of my mind like nothing ever happened....Now me knowing she reminiscing on what they did...How do I know for sure it would never happen again...I know I can't stop it if it was to happened again but where would that leave all of us....How do I erase memories of us? How do I make all of my feelings I have for him go a way? Do I just completely stop talking to my cousin? I mean how can anyone handle something like this...I try my hardest not to think about it or worry myself about it...But its kind of hard not to when you love the both of them...Lord help me....What do I do What do I do? Well I just pray that it doesn't happen again and I'm able to regain my trust in her...  

How can you redeem yourself with someone you love

First off trust is something that takes a lifetime to earn but only takes a split second to lose...If you have lost someone's trust more than likely you're not going to get it back but there are some case where you can...If you want someone's trust back first off you need to tell them know the truth about every lie you have ever told them that helped them get to this point...Secondly to prove the truth if possible...If there is anyway to prove that you are telling the truth do it...This way they would see that you are trying to regain their trust...Thirdly tell the truth from that day forward...If you really love this person and want them to know that you just f*cked up but you would never do it again...Do what it takes to redeem yourself...Yes it easier said then done but if you want to keep this person in your life you would do whatever it takes trust me...I'm at this point now trying to redeem myself...Sad part is that this person doesn't love me but that's another post...I tell true stories in my post...Anyway I felt like I had to lie to him because if I told the truth he would go the other way...Now I have told him the truth behind the lies that I once told but of course he still doesn't trust me...The lies I told I really couldn't prove I was telling the truth once I did tell it so that plays a big part on why he still doesn't trust me...I have been trying to stay on my p's and q's lately but of course something always happens...Now because you have lost this person trust you are going to get accused of everything in the book...Trust me...But if you want to redeem yourself you have to tough it out and take that because you messed up not that other person...I know this because I'm going through that now...All the apologizing, baby I love you etc. is not I repeat is not going to get their trust back...You have to work for it...Now after you have done all you can and work as hard as you can to redeem yourself if that person is showing no interest into trying to regain that trust...Well then you have to let go and take it as a life lesson learned...But if they do regain trust in you do whatever it takes to keep it...If it means you have to climb Mt. Everest...Baby you need to be telling them "I don't know how long I'll be gone but just to prove to you I'm telling the truth I'm going"...Trust is one of the hardest thing to get back...So its best that you just don't lose it in the first place