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This blog is about a recent experience...Two people that I love dearly hurt me to my soul...They both new how I felt about them but that wasn't enough to stop them...They was messing around with one another for 3weeks...Now 3weeks is a very long time for two people to be doing something that they knew was wrong...So how do I get pass it? How do I regain trust in either one of them? How do I know it would never happen again? How do I know it wasn't planned on either one of their parts? Now what I am getting from it is that the both of them started to feel for each other...Where would that have left me? How could anyone make themselves okay with doing such a thing knowing that would have to face the person their hurting everyday...For the life of me I can't understand why and how...And maybe this is why I can't get pass it yet...There are days were I'm angry as hell with her and don't want to say shit to her...But then there are days where I just throw it to the back of my mind like nothing ever happened....Now me knowing she reminiscing on what they did...How do I know for sure it would never happen again...I know I can't stop it if it was to happened again but where would that leave all of us....How do I erase memories of us? How do I make all of my feelings I have for him go a way? Do I just completely stop talking to my cousin? I mean how can anyone handle something like this...I try my hardest not to think about it or worry myself about it...But its kind of hard not to when you love the both of them...Lord help me....What do I do What do I do? Well I just pray that it doesn't happen again and I'm able to regain my trust in her...